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Sorry Friends, for not Bloging any kind of Poet or some Shayari…

          Because I’m sick, In this days I’m always become sick…every year same… our family doctor also knows that…& am also get well automatically at the middle of this month… No one knows Why, But only I know……It because of my 2 friend name – Joyna & Sohel….

          It started in my junior college. I’m in 11’th std.. Then I first mate with Sohel, with my other friends. He is totally different from others, always having smile on his face. Always great to meet everyone.

Then sohel & me become Good not Best friends.  

          Every time he will get manage to get me smile, & he always try to make me smile, by saying some jokes some silly jokes, he always said,

“Jindagi to ek bar hi milti hai then why we get nervous or get frustrated for just small things, life is small & we get it only once, so just enjoy it”

          Myself also feel sometime jealous by seeing him, because I can’t live like him, I can’t Smile like him, I can’t bunk lectures like him, I can’t shout on the college campus to call friends. I’m a simple boy at that time. Sohel is the guy who teach me how to talk with the girls….

          Then one day he tell me about Joyna, a girl he loves most from his school days….They know each other well, talk with each other…. But things are not come up through his mouth…. By his ex-pressions I understand he loves her most, so I decided to help him…but question is how?

My mind is in trouble that he says me after one & half year of friendship, When I ask him why are you telling me now?

He says’ “ Sorry yaar I want to tell but I cant understand me”

Here my friend’s hurt is getting burn,

            Mohabat mein maine kya kuch nahi luta diya,
            Mohbat mein maine kya kuch nahi luta diya,
            Unko pasand thi roshni aur

            Aur maine khud ko hi jala diya

I tell him always,

            Apka aur unka rishta hi kuch aisa hai,

            Jindagi bhar ka sath hai......

            Tu mane ya na mane,

            Uparvalene khud ise banaya hai...!!!

           Then one day he came to me & tell “SHAN please help me”…Because someone tell him that I help friends in this kind of matter by giving them my Poems or love letters, In that days I Famous for that… but in the matter of my friend I don’t wanna help him I tell him directly then he ask why? I just say if I help you,

“you will be gone away from me”…

            Kisi par mar mar ke kyon jee rahe ho?

            Has has kar jeena seekho

            Agar main kar duun sab khwahishen teri puuri

            To ho jaaegi tere mere beech badi ye duri

            Bhul jaaega tu is DOST  ko zara samazale…

He said,

“No, how can I left u alone, we both are best friends, just like Fountain pen, pen did’t write without his ink, just like that I can’t walk without you a miles”

Then I ask him’ “What is in her, that you like him most”

Then he said,

          “Apne yaar ki ahr baat khudai si lagne lagti hai…

            Do pal ki dorrie bhi judai si lagti hai…

            Bas Kuch isi tarah paglon sa ho jata hoon

            Jab bhi main uski yaadon main kho jata hoon…”

Then I tell him, that I tell everyone before start to help them,

“I don’t promise that this will get ok, but I will try at my Best”

“But please keep some space for me in your heart, a little bit not more just to remember me”

He says,

“I can’t give the little bit space in my heart because my heart is not mine, but my whole body is for you”

          Then from my friend Rekha, which is her best friend I know that she also love him but, Question is who tell each other? Because both are getting nervous when this issue come, then how they can talk….

          Then we both decided to make their personal meating with each other at coming valentine day, back of the College near lake…

            I teach him how to propose, we make a 100 time rehearsal, I wrote a Love letter for him, one of the best.

          “Zindagi naye rang badlne lagti hai

            Shaame kisi ke intazar main dhalne lagti hai

            Dil kaa sukun tabah ho jata hai

            Jab koi ishq main fanaah ho jat ahai” 

            Finally, the day come & as decided I come with Sohel, & Rekha come with Joyna… But as decided the meeting place is not empty, there are lots of couples presents from which more than half are my friends, whom I help…As decided we meat at the bench but the bench is already booked by 2 couples. Then by leaving them alone I go & try to find a bench, finally a I got a bench as I want, surrounded by trees… Then I call them & tell to come here… As they come, we leave them alone on a bench & we (me & Rekha) go to get ice-cream. We come after a 1 hr. Then what we have sea is unbelievable because both are seating as it is. Then I understand no one has said yet…Then Joyna says “SHAN I have to go my brother is waiting for me in home, if I not go into the time he will come here, you know my brother.”        

Then I said “just we eat the ice-cream & we can go”.

After eating she is ready to go. I try to stop him, but he can’t, because of his brother.

& here we are trying to make a LOVE relationship, I think that might be his problem his brother.

I just thinking this She call me, & go away from them ( Sohel & Rehka) then again he cal me. When I go towards her she says

“SHAN, you know everything about me & my family. In the whole world I fear only about my brother, because se is not a man he is animal. He beats that boy who just see me. & here he loves me, & if my brother knows that then he will beat him hardly. & if he knows that I also love him then he will definitely kill him. I love him that’s why I don’t want to hurt him, please tell him to forgive me & forget me”

Sohel who is just listening her, come forward & garb her & says

“Forget about your brother you Love me or not?”

I’m just looking at his face, I don’t tech him like that, it is write as I  says every time to myself-

            “ Pyar Sikhaya nahi jata ho jata hai”

Then she just ran away from him, then he also ran towards her, after that we are running towards them…..

Then at the middle of the college she stop by see something & shocked, He also stop at some distance & shouted Loudly,

             “JOYNA I LOVE YOU”

When I listen that voice I think a lion asking her mate to meet. But when I go there I see that He Propose her in front of all the college & most horrible in front of her brother….

Then I think that a tiger is coming to beat this lion…..

But wo kahte hai naa

        “ MUDDAI LAKH BURA CHAHE TO KYA HOTA HAI, WAHI HOTA HAI JO MANJURE KHUDA HOTA HAI”

Then the Police is come in our college for a round, first time I see the INDIAN Police to came in right time at right place.

Then after that, her college is stop, he only come for the preliminary exams with having one bodyguard with him her grandmother…

Then One month is gone like this after that there is holiday for study for the final 12’Th exam (Higher secondary education)…

 For studying we are going to college library. Study is not going well, I’m doing sometime but Sohel is always thinking about her, crying sometime, getting angry without reson. Then some days goes on…

Then one day his brother came in our college we are studying or seating in library. He come there & just call both us outside by our friend… when we go there, I see her brother, then I said Sohel to ran away, I am trying to ran away, I go long away, but when I look behind I saw Sohel is straight going towards her brother without fear. Then her brother & his friends are Beating him, I can’t see my friend beating in front of me & am running away. So I run towards them to beat them….But

But My eyes are open by 3 days in a hospital, but Sohel is steal in comma…& his chances are also few….

Then in the first time of my life I perform a NAMAZ for someone else i.e my friend, & say ALLAH to just help him…

Then at 5’Th day of his comma I’m seating near his bed &   studying….  Then I listen something beep it’s Sohel’s Heart beats getting faster & machine is beeping….  Then I stand up to call the doctor but when I turned around I see Her His LOVE – Joyna. I don’t understand, She come near to his bed, Sohels Heart beat is getting louder, then she whispers something in his ear & kiss him & ran away….

I don’t understand what is happening she come kiss & ran away…   

Then I see Sohel’s face he is actually smiling, My brain is going to fuse out now…

I seat down, then some fingers are touch my hand when I look up is him Sohel…. Then he close the eyes…. I ran to call doctor & his father & mother… when they come Doctor says’

 “Good news, he is sleeping he is not in comma, he is out of danger”

This is the happiest moment of my life when he touched my hair.

Then days goes he is getting well in just 9 days, started walking, talking…  I don’t tell anyone that Joyna has come in hospital. But I believe that she is responsible for his getting well situation…

Here he is getting well, But Joyna is going sick he is admitted in  hospital Rekha tell me…

Then exams are come near

Then we said Sohel to don’t give the exam… but he not listen… Joyna is also not listening there…she also want to give exam…

I personally beg in front of him but he says,

     “I know my study is not completed, but Joyna & me are in one Block for exam…In that period I can see her,

   use main jee bhar ke dekh to sakta hoon”

I said nothing……

Then we both study in the Hospital day & night…

Then exam day has come…

After First paper I ask him how is the paper?  he says

                “Good. But truly I don’t even read the question paper.”

     I’m also in the same block …during the paper I see him he is just feel first page & started to see her, she also doing same thing….

Then all paper goes just like that….

Then after two-three months result are declaired 

I pass, but they both are get fail….

At result day also he is smiling, & before seeing his own result he see my result & say,

    “good, thanks but I’m sorry”…

& start crying…

Then admission process are started but I tell my family that,

“I don’t want admission this year, I’m going to take admission next year with Sohel”

Because we both are dreaming about higher college education, his dream is to became an engineer…..

But one day Sohel call me to his home urgently….When I go I see he is having broachers of all engg. Colleges for me….& then he convince me, Emotionally blackmail me to feel the form & go to the college…..

Then I got admission in Engg. College….Then my college is started in few days…. & I’m busy in my college….but I’m in contact with him on Phone/mobile….

One Sunday I go to his home having the Exam form of October with me…..he see that & say “There is no need of this, iski koi zarurat nahi hai” 

I tried to convince him but all is west….there joyna is also not feeling the exam form….

After some month I know from my friends that his brother is finding a guy for her, to marry with her…..

This is a month of October, in this month there is birthday of both… Joyna’s birthdate is 3’rd & Sohel’s is 13, after 10 days…

Then at 2’nd oct. I’m planning for how to get in the party of joyna’s bitday….then at evening she come to my home & say

“SHAN please don’t come tomorrow because there is no party, & please tell him that I’m sorry…

Meri shohart pe nahi to mere Maatam pe zarur ana, Please & Thanks, Thanks for everything…Ye pathar ki duniya na kabhi pyar ko samzi hai aur na hi samzegi…main ja rahi hoon…I’m going …GOOD BYE”

I’m just watching his face & can’t say anything...there is something, something on his face as she decided something… Her eyes just looking at me & try to say something but I cant understand it & she ran away....

            “Koi ankhonse baat kar leta hai,

              Koi ankhonse mulakat kar leta hai,

              Bada mushkil hota hai, Jawab dena

              Jab koi Khamsh ankonse saval kar leta hai….”

Then next day when I’m seating in home Rekha come to my home & say “Joyna is died...She murdered herself…”

I was just shocked, at her birthday she die… I say “I don’t understand it last night she is just here talking with me to not to come her birthday party” 

Rekha is just looking at me & say “That’s not possible last whole night she is with me in her home”

I ask her when this all happened? she said “At night when everyone sleep he take the sleeping tablets overdose the whole bottle”….& she starts crying…. “She is just last night smiling with me she said that she loves Sohel most…& doctor says that she die just at 12:01am”  I’m with her in her room all night……but I can’t feel anything…

Then Sohel come to my home…

We are just looking at him…He say “So you allow her to go…But why…” & he start crying I don’t understand what to do & what to say…

Then there is clean silent just a panic voice of Sohel’s crying there…Then he ran away from my home…

& I am just stay still stand, shocked….outside it’s Raining heavily….& inside we are…..

Then We go to her home…But his brother is not allowing us to enter into his house…Not allowing to see the Death body…

He says that because of us she died…

 Then Sohel start crying loudly in front of her house….In that rain also his voice we can listen….

           “Unke ke angan ke bich bahut roye the,

             In andhiyari raho me bahut khoye the,

             Hanste rahane ka koshis  bhi karo,

             In badalo se jayada nain uske roye the…”

Then suddenly a voice of rain is just getting louder….& Sohel stop crying & start looking at the sky…then all the clouds is just going away…in 5 minutes rain is stop. Then joyna’s mother come outside & gets us inside…

Then we come from there…I see the face of Sohel it’s calm & steady…something is just going in his mind…

I can’t imagine it but whatever it is not looking good…So I decided to bring Sohel in my house for a change…& just take care of him…

Firstly he refused then he agree to come with me…

After two days, he is just say “I have to go home please I’m just fine…” then I allow him to go home

Then next day I go to his home, he is just looking calm & good but there is not my friend, who is laughing always, smiling always….

I tried to convince him, tell him to forget her, but he says…

            “Kahte he jise naseeb mit Gaya hatho se,

              Ban k anso Jhalak gya Ankho se,

              Koi to bataye kaise Bhol jaun use,

              Jo kabi Dur gaya hi nahi in Sanso se…….”

Then I say “there is lots of way to live, Your life is not end because of a girl… Paglon ki tarah kyon kar rahe ho”  

Then he just smile & say,

             “Kadam kadam teri yaad aati hai,

               Har saans tujh heeko bulati hai.

               Har roz tere wade yaad dilati hai

               Khush haali ke who din roz dohrati hai….”

My all tries are going failed, he is just become a man who is not alive….When I’m coming back His mother tail me that his father is getting frustrated by seeing Sohel & they are getting loss in there Business….

Then after six days (at 12’th oct.) he came to my house, I’m planning for his birthday with Rekha….

He came & seat….then I’m telling tomorrow’s planning to him… but when I see his face there is silent but internally there is big storm in his mind…He is thinking something…

Then he just smile & say “Tumhare liye to jaan bhi hajir hai dost, kal jo tum chaho wahi ho ga, Tomorrow is your day…”

Then tomorrow me, Rekha & Sohel goes to the Picture, Rankala Lake, all the day we three are just wondering but there is not a smile or joy on anyone’s face & how there it can be?....

Then at 08:00 pm he says, “I have to go mamma & papa is waiting for me in home…they have there planning for my Birthday”  

Then we drop him to his home……

At that time he said….

           “Dono paon jaise lage hon khisakne.

            Ho sake to haath thaam le mera

            Ek guzaarish hai a Dost,

            Zehar hi sahi, pilade tu apne haathon se...”

I can’t tell him anything because I feel the storm in his eyes….7 he ran away….

Then at 12:15am Sohel’s father call me & that thing happen for which I’m fearing most…. Sohel is died…He also murdered himself….I don’t understand why….

When I go to his home I was just shocked not by seeing his death body….because the storm in his mind in his eyes tell me that earlier…. But I’m shocked by seeing that he is just actually smiling…… & there is letter in his hand….i grab the letter from his hand because they are not coming out easily….There are total 3 letters 1’st for aunty 2’nd for uncle & 3’rd for me….

I don’t have that much of daring to read that but I have to read it….but uncle is started crying loudly…. & thrown away the letter… I read that letter…

“Salamalekum abbajan aap jab ye khat padhe tab main shayad na rahoon, muze meri is khata ke liye ho sake to maaf kar dena… maine lakh koshish ki akele jine ki par muzse huva nahi...aur muze aisa dekhake aap ka Business main nuksaan ho gaya…. Wo sab meri vajah se hua tha….Pichale dino maine meri 5 lakh ki medical polici nickal wayi thi….meri jate hi unhe phone kar ke use claim kar ke le lena…main aapko is tarah dekh nahi sakta wo bhi meri vajah se nahi…. Isliye maine meri maut bhi aisi chuni hai ki kisiko bhi natyrally lage…. Samzo yahi meri akhri khwahish hai…..aur muze maaf kar dena….KHUDAHAFIS”    

I’m wondering now how this can be happened & how can he just wrote that my last wish is to claim his medical policy…how….

Kisine thick kaha hai “Log Pyaar main paagal ho jate hain par istrah… ye to sarasar pagalpan hai…”

& on my paper there is only written  shayari & big sorry

           “ Khusroh dariyaah premkaa…

             Jo ultee waaki dhaar…

             Jo ubaraa so doob gayaa…

             Jo doobaa so Paar!!!!! ”

Aur mere dost…

          “Har ahat ehsas hamara dilayegi

            Har hava kissa hamara sunayegi.....

            Ham itni yaden bhar denge apke dil mein

           Na chahte hue bhi Apko yad hamari ayegi.....!!! ”

That is a true story of my friend……..jise main aaj bhi 2-3 salon baad yaad karta hoon par najane kuon in pathrile ankon main ek bhi aasoon nahi ata….Na jane kyuon…Not a single drop of tear…. 

           "Wo dono ka ssath hi kuch aisa tha...

             Jamane ko jo manjur na tha....

             Bandh di bich main jaat-path ki dewar

             Aur alag kar diya unhe...."

main ab kahta hoon is jamane se ho sake to ab alag kar ke dikha do unhe.....

             "Ladh jaunga main khuda se bhi agar

              Agar wo unhe maut ke baad bhi juda kare"